Sunday, January 17, 2010

disappeared

Oh I have become one of those slacking bloggers - disappearing for months at a time.

Everything is fine, I'm 13.5 weeks now (will be 14 weeks on wednesday). We've had a few great ultrasounds and the babies are growing right on track, very busy, and looking very healthy so far.

I have been miserable, thus my excuse for not keeping up. It seems worse than last time - although maybe that's my bad memory. Or maybe being a few years older makes it harder, and probably the fact that I am not able to get in a 3 hour nap every day like I last time makes a difference too. The last few months have been filled with nausea, gas, bloating, nausea, headaches, lightheadedness, very severe insomnia, exhaustion, bad taste in my mouth and more nausea. I got a cold at thanksgiving that lasted for weeks and weeks and weeks, I think my body didn't have the strength to fight it very well. I've been managing to do the bare minimum to keep the family fed and clothed and stay employed. Beyond that, nothing has been accomplished, my house is disorganized and my to-do list is a mile long. Thank goodness for my amazing husband who has been doing everything he can around here, and taking care of the kids all weekend while I lay on the couch and moan.

But, I am finally starting to come out of the fog. I'm still not quite feeling that great second trimester energy you sometimes hear about, but I am feeling human again.

I will try to be back soon and write more of an update. But I at least wanted to send out word that I am still alive and doing ok.

Oh, and I deleted my twitter account. I kept seeing people add me, but I never update it any more.

6 comments:

cat said...

Welcome back! I don't know if you had that second trimester feel good thing first time around but I never had with the twins and my gynea said you do not often get it with twins. Good luck girl.

SleepyMom said...

I too found the second pregnancy tons harder than the first. I didn't get any relief from the overwhelming exhaustion and stomach troubles until about week 20. I hope your relief comes quicker.

Jaimie said...

good to hear it is starting to get better!

Heather said...

I will say you are probably doing great! I thought being pregnant with twins was the worst for nausea, tiredness and general "I feel like crap!" Much more than my singleton pregnancy was. And you are trying to keep up with twins already! That is a feat in itself without being pregnant to boot. And you got sick, ugh! Nothing is worse than being sick and pg.

Hang in there. The To Do list will always be long and you'll eventually start bouncing back, but now is the time to rest as much as possible. You won't be able to later. Not that you can now, with little ones, but try.

motheringmymiraclemultiples said...

Thinaking of you and sending hugs! You will feel better soon.....

Anonymous said...

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