Getting to 20 weeks is a very big deal for me. I know a woman who was pregnant from twins (a girl from my IVF board actually), and she lost them both at 20 weeks. It was heartbreaking. And I can't get it out of my head. Her cervix gave out and she went into labor. Even though her cervix had been just fine at her check a couple weeks before. They got her in the hospital and stopped the contractions, but she had dilated too much and after a few days started to get an infection. And they had no choice but to let her deliver. Of course it was too early and the girls did not survive. This haunts me. So I think of 20 weeks as a big hurdle to get over. I don't know anybody who has lost twins after 20 weeks (and please don't tell me any stories that will freak me out!) - so I think after 20 weeks I will feel much more confident. One month to go.
I think I'm feeling some little flutters again. I didn't feel anything for several days. Maybe they were sleeping a lot because of me having a cold? But today I think I feel some faint flutters.
I'm still pretty snotty today. This cold is taking a while to kick.
Update on random pregnancy symptoms:
- My sense of smell: I've always had a pretty sensitive nose. But these days I can smell everything. I'm not really having aversions to smells, but I just notice them all. Somebody referred to this as the dog nose - perfect!
- Hunger: just in the last few days really, I've started to experience this extreme feeling of hunger. I don't just get hungry like normal - I instead get ravenously hungry - like "I must eat right now!". But despite this - my appetite overall is relatively normal, I am eating normal quanties of food. I'm actually back to eating normal meals finally. It's just that when I do get hungry, it is extremely urgent.
- Nausea: happy to say this is basically gone. Unless I let myself get too hungry. I really hope I'm not jinxing myself by saying this.
- Still no real food cravings to speak of. Everything tastes pretty good these days.
- Dreams: technicolor ones. Random ones. Usually I can't even recall a specific narrative in the dream, just a series of very wierd moments that make no sense. Sometimes they are stressful dreams, but usually just very strange. And almost every night I dream about food. I've never done that before. Earlier in the week it was popcorn. Once last week it was ribs. Last night I was cooking a big turkey dinner in my dream.
- Boobs: a lot of people report extreme breast growth. I think I've maybe grown a cup size, but that's it. I had normally been about a 38C. I had one or two bras that were 38D, actually I don't really know why I had them - because they were too big. I think at one time I let my mother convince me that I was wearing the wrong bra size. But really my 38C's were just fine. Well now it's the D that fits better. Although the older, more stretched out C's are just fine too. But I have not yet felt a need to buy new ones.
- Belly growth: still seems like not much to me. Especially seems like I haven't grown in the past week or so. I guess it happens in spurts. But at 16 weeks with twins I would have expected to be bigger. Perhaps because I'm tall, I've got more room to hide them still.
- Headaches: I have been having a lot of them. They're usually not real bad though - tylenol takes care of them. But it happens almost daily.
- Ok.... um, bladder control.... Yeah.... I knew this was a pregnancy thing. But I expected that this wouldn't happen until closer toward the end. It's only happened a couple times - when I already knew the bladder was full. And I sneezed. Oops. Not much. But a little definitely did leak out. Not sexy.
I know that a few of you are big into Yoga - so I need your advice. I've done a bit of it - beginner yoga classes a few years ago. I enjoyed it, but never totally got into it. I've heard good things about yoga as a good prenatal exercise. And there's a place just down the street here that has a weekly prenatal yoga class on sunday mornings. So my question is this - if you show up for the prenatal class - do they assume that you already know how to do yoga? Or is this something you can do as a beginner? I recall a few of the basics, but by no means am I anything beyond a beginner. Is this not something you should take up while pregnant, if you weren't already doing it regularly?
Poor J has a toothe ache. He has to have a root canal on monday. In the mean time, he's in a lot of pain. My poor guy. But still - he's more concerned about how I'm feeling and he's still waiting on me.
Here's a little thing - probably seems silly - that's been bothering me: That I never heard from my RE again after my positive pregnancy test. It just worked out that the two times I went into her office for my early pregnancy ultrasounds, she wasn't in on those days. So I never saw her again after my transfer. I guess I had expected that I'd at least get a phone call from her with a quick 'congratulations'. But I know she's not one for getting very emotionally involved. I loved the level of care we got from her, but she was always very business like. I know it's a little silly thing, but I had just expected some kind of word from her.
And another probably silly thing - I still experience pregnancy envy. Stupid, huh? When I see pregnant women out and about - I still get jealous. I look at them and assume that they probably got pregnant easily, that they didn't have to struggle like I did. I need to get over that one.
Did you see that story on the Today Show this morning about the couple expecting sextuplets? wow. Still not sure how an RE could let that happen - did they not know that she had 6 eggs? Anyway. not for me to judge.
Well that was a load of randomness...