I think I'm ovulating - I can feel that familiar little twinge on one side, and the familiar EWCM that I was trained to look for.
And even now, with two little babies at home, and the knowledge that any kind of natural pregnancy would be impossible, and also knowing that even though I would like to try again at some point now is really not the time... But still my brain kicks into automatic TTC mode. and I think - well, I'm ovulating, so I guess we better try tonight. It's automatic.
And it's just so strange - that after all that, the years of trying just created this habit that I can't break.
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I know what you mean... After having spent most of the past 17 years trying to conceive (several times successfully), it is definitely a big change for me now to know that I am done with that part of my life (not implying that you are!)
I still cry over the arrival of periods that should no longer catch me off guard. But they do.
Hope never dies, I guess.
I'm right there with you. This habit is certainly a hard one to break.
Old habits die hard.
Great update. Glad you're ovulating, I guess - hopefully it means your body is recovered!
Bea
me too! and it bugs me to realize how conditioned i am to think that way!
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