mama

I spent some time yesterday and today reading about Maddie. I of course had heard her story for the past several weeks, I had tried to visit their site when she first passed, but the server was down. and I finally got back there this week and read her story. I read about the real and raw pain that her mother is living with. My heart aches for her.

It made me so sad. I sat at my computer yesterday sobbing. I sobbed in the shower after.

This is what struck me the the most: '....I remembered that Maddie never called me Mama. She had other words for me (Da Doo was her favorite), but I couldn’t wait to hear her sweet voice say “mama”.'

Callie has just recently started calling me "mama". And it's the most beautiful sound. And now after reading this, I think about Maddie and her mother every time I hear it. It breaks my heart to think about never hearing that word from her.