Thursday, September 03, 2009

cancelled

I've never actually had a cycle cancelled before, so this is a first for me.

My natural FET cycle for this month has been cancelled. I knew it was a possibility, so I'm not overwhelmingly disappointed, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at all disappointed. I knew going in that we we would all agree to cancel if all the stars did not line up just perfectly, and that is what has happened.

My cycle was moving a little slow. It's day 15 now, still no LH surge. I have a decent follicle and my lining looks good. But my Estrogen was at 120 yesterday and still the same today - so it has leveled off at a level that the RE feels is not high enough to support the lining. She doesn't want to take a chance and transfer my last two embryos when everything isn't perfect. She probably could boost it up a bit with some supplemental estrogen, but again that wouldn't be the ideal scenario, so we all agree it's better to wait.

So - next time - we'll still go for the natural cycle, but she'll add in just a little bit of follistim in the few days before ovulation, to get the follicle to grow a little more and put out a bit more estrogen. She feels this is better than putting me on supplemental estrogen.

the only problem - to do this again next cycle would put us right in the middle of our planned sailing vacation. So we either delay the cycle or delay the vacation. Right now I'm more inclined to delay the cycle - I feel like we put so much of our lives on hold waiting for these pregnancies to happen. I'd really be pissed if I messed up my vacation plans and the cycle didn't work. Of course, if we changed our vacation plans and the cycyle did work, then it would all be worth it. Nothing we have to decide now - we just hang out until my period comes and then call the clinic to schedule things.

12 comments:

notaclowncar said...

I'm so sorry your cycle was cancelled - I know what a bummer that is. I wish I had some words of comfort to say. I am thinking of you.

I know the dilemma you're facing about the timing of the next cycle, also. It's so hard to keep putting life on hold for a maybe. It's very difficult.

My Reality said...

I am sorry you have been cancelled. It is frustrating when your body doesn't cooperate.

cat said...

Sorry about that! Why not go on vacation and relax, in my books it might just add to make the next cycle after that more successful.

Love and light to you girl.

Hopeful Mother said...

Looking back, I think I would agree that the waiting and putting life on hold is one of the most difficult things about IF. That doesn't change even though you have kids now.

I'm sorry about the cancellation.

Heather said...

So sorry. That is so frustrating.

Helen said...

I'm sorry about the cancellation, babes. I know you were sort of prepared, but it still hurts I know.

If it were me (and it's not) I'd go for postponing the cycle until after the sailing. Gives you a chance to blow some fresh air into the plans and the hopes.

Anonymous said...

So sorry, I've been there too. Go on Vacation, really, it is so important to do these things, the embys are fine and can wait a month, you need to recharge, good luck!

andi said...

Hello - sorry to be so late checking in on you... and also bummed it was a no go.

But I agree totally with the 'go with life'. IVF sucks too much out of us already.

Thinking of you and hoping you have a good break.

Andrea
x

Dirk said...

The cycles are so stressful, but the waiting seems worse.

Good Luck.

Sarah said...

ugh, a cancellation never feels good, even though it helps to know you're giving them their best shot by waiting. but waiting gets so tiresome. i think taking your vacation on time is a good plan, and it sounds like your doc has some good ideas too.

Sarah said...

ugh, a cancellation never feels good, even though it helps to know you're giving them their best shot by waiting. but waiting gets so tiresome. i think taking your vacation on time is a good plan, and it sounds like your doc has some good ideas too.

Jaimie said...

How are you doing?