ok, so now I'd be totally lying if I tried to say that the waiting and wondering wasn't starting to get to me. I can only try to ignore it for so long.
Oh yes, the analyzing every little twinge, wondering if it's too early to test, starting off into space when I really have things I need to be getting done, etc., etc. It's all there.
Only 4 days left. I can be strong.
We have told nobody IRL about this cycle. Well, small exception - I have one friend who knows, she's the friend from my original TTC board who very generously agreed to watch my kids during the transfer. She's the only person IRL who knows - otherwise it's just you all in the blogging world, and my online friends from my IVF board. But I swear my mother has a sixth sense - I hear a tone in her voice, like she feels like she knows that something is going on that I'm not telling her about. She's like that - she knows things. But we didn't want to make a big deal about this cycle, have to answer questions, have everyone wanting updates, etc. - BTDT. Our big plan is to make a big announcement in person when we go to San Diego in the middle of July. Assuming this all works out of course. We really want to hold out with the news so that we can tell everyone in person, I think it will be really cool.
So hopefully I will have that positive news to share in July...